Wednesday, March 15, 2017

I've been watching music videos from the 1990's all night.  I really do need to probably stop.  I mean Jewel is saving my soul right now.

There will always be something about music in the 90's that I will appreciate.  I know that it's because I became an adult in the 90's and spent some great times with the modern alternative pop music of the 90's as a soundtrack.

There are certain songs that I will flash back to certain moments immediately every single damn time I hear them.

For example, I cannot hear virtually anything off of "Tragic Kingdom" by No Doubt and not think about  {Name Redacted}.  I redact her name now because when last I wrote about her way back in the early 00's she googled her name and asked me to remove it.

Joan Osborne's "One of Us" makes me think of my friend Shana.  We had a blast hanging out in during the El Nino Spring and Summer of 1997.  I met both Shana and {Name Redacted} at work at Price Enterprises.  They were both temps at one point.  I think they both may have even overlapped there.  I wish I had more friends of my Price days.  I have Kena as a FB friend, and of course Dave and Sean as FB friends.  Of course I'm still in touch with a good number of my friends from San Diego via FB, and for that I'm really thankful.

No I wish were still in touch with some of my older friends from Price Club.  Folks that were a good 5 to 10 years older than I was at the time, who were kind of big brothers and sisters to me.  Plus I do wonder what happened to a couple of my former colleagues.

I guess because it's now 20 years since that Spring of 1997.  That was a real turning point in my life.  Seriously an emotional and spiritual journey of about 20 months from the end of January '97 until I left San Diego for good in September of '98.

I had good times in the 90's.  Strike that, I had great times in the 90's.  After getting let go from Price I kind of wandered around for a long time, I really didn't have a direction.  I had really neglected my collegial studies because I always figured I had plenty of time.  I had just made the decision to go back to school before I got laid off.  In fact the first day of classes was my last day at Price.

That Shakespeare class I took in January 1997 from John Gregg at Mesa College was pretty interesting. I met two young ladies whom I had attractions to.  The Blonde was uber hot, but she was flirty and flighty.  And ultimately wasn't for me.  The Brunette was curvacious and pretty, but tortured.  She became a close friend for my remaining days of San Diego - named after a month of the year.  April.  I think she ended up sleeping with all my friends except for me.  We had a deeper friendship.  That's what she kept telling me.  We were supposed to move in together as roommates at one point, but I quit my job at Canyon Pottery and left the city to start a new life.  I haven't been able to find April on social media or the internet

I wonder about my friend Dina from Horace Mann Junior High.  I had a big old crush on Dina.  I google her and I see she's still in San Diego but not on social media.  I curse the pre-teen version of myself for not being bolder.  I wish I could go back in time ala Marty McFly sometimes.

I wonder about my ex-girlfriend Mary who was roommates with Sharon in that awesome place off of University near the Alibi.  You know I don't even know if I should call Mary an ex.  I guess so.

I wonder about {Name Redacted}.

I wonder about Diedie, aka Sarah who I dated for a brief period in 1990.  I remember reading Sandman #1 with her in 1989.

I don't have an eidetic memory, I'm glad I don't.  But I do remember a lot of things.

Do you?

What do you remember about me?

Are you even there?